Wednesday, July 04, 2007
recently have been facing tonnes of problems, be it domestic, relationship, health etc… totally vex over it… all these are causing mi in losing sleep, losing appetite for proper meal result in sudden increase of weight (thanks to all the titbits), vomiting proper meal (disclaimer: I am NOT pregnant!! Am vomiting proper meal without being digested not those gastric juice), waking up late, late for work den things get so not positive……
The whole team are on fast train, tonnes of things to rush which cause most of em to lunch-in recently… except for 38s gang… refuse to lunch-in (and of coz we are the kind soul to ta-bao for the rest of em) we went to Central for LJS… substitute of Fish & Co., coz Jade has craving for it… but we all are pure lazy to travel… there was silent moment on the journey there… pple trying to break the ice… pple trying to find some topic to loosen up the moment… but seems like all was in vain…
Coz I was at a lost… so I choose to q w her to avoid awkward moment… but at the q… we saw the unhappiness/sadness in ur eyes… we were so helpless and nervous… starting to qns… wad happen?? Due too many stupid assumptions from mi… in return I received an “I feel like ignoring u” look…
Back to seat… we all ate in silent… conversation topic was surface… den I receive an sms from Ed… follow be a fone call from him… tell mi to go back early coz cosmas is munching the koropok… think he is too hungry… read the sms after the fone call.. the msg was “Don’t be late” 1st instinct: Dun be late for meeting… but my meeting is at 3… “look at my watch… onli 130… I wun be late mahz…” double confirm w my pm… afraid there was a change of time without informing mi… but it’s not abt the meeting… nvm… I was thinking.. izzit due to me reaching office quite late recently + I still haf to leave on the dot for skool… opps…
Went hm after class… told my mom to wake mi up the next day… coz I keep thinking tt Ed’s msg is asking mi not to be late for work… beri beri nice mummy woke mi up at 6 am today… as usual lahz… my 5 mins excuses… but she reali insist this time round… went to e extend of switching off my fan n took away my blanket… feeling sooo in-secure without my blanket… I sat up n stone… but I reali cant stand her naggin… so reluctant to leave my bed n get ready for work… still… I am not in time… haiz…
Skool started ytd… I pretty dislike the location of skool… it’s diff to get home… heavy traffic, bus packed w tonnes of student despite tonnes of em is driving… nth much to update abt skool… juz trying to cope w it bahz…
Just look at my eyelid… super low morale…
See.... It's big....
The whole team are on fast train, tonnes of things to rush which cause most of em to lunch-in recently… except for 38s gang… refuse to lunch-in (and of coz we are the kind soul to ta-bao for the rest of em) we went to Central for LJS… substitute of Fish & Co., coz Jade has craving for it… but we all are pure lazy to travel… there was silent moment on the journey there… pple trying to break the ice… pple trying to find some topic to loosen up the moment… but seems like all was in vain…
Coz I was at a lost… so I choose to q w her to avoid awkward moment… but at the q… we saw the unhappiness/sadness in ur eyes… we were so helpless and nervous… starting to qns… wad happen?? Due too many stupid assumptions from mi… in return I received an “I feel like ignoring u” look…
Back to seat… we all ate in silent… conversation topic was surface… den I receive an sms from Ed… follow be a fone call from him… tell mi to go back early coz cosmas is munching the koropok… think he is too hungry… read the sms after the fone call.. the msg was “Don’t be late” 1st instinct: Dun be late for meeting… but my meeting is at 3… “look at my watch… onli 130… I wun be late mahz…” double confirm w my pm… afraid there was a change of time without informing mi… but it’s not abt the meeting… nvm… I was thinking.. izzit due to me reaching office quite late recently + I still haf to leave on the dot for skool… opps…
Went hm after class… told my mom to wake mi up the next day… coz I keep thinking tt Ed’s msg is asking mi not to be late for work… beri beri nice mummy woke mi up at 6 am today… as usual lahz… my 5 mins excuses… but she reali insist this time round… went to e extend of switching off my fan n took away my blanket… feeling sooo in-secure without my blanket… I sat up n stone… but I reali cant stand her naggin… so reluctant to leave my bed n get ready for work… still… I am not in time… haiz…
Skool started ytd… I pretty dislike the location of skool… it’s diff to get home… heavy traffic, bus packed w tonnes of student despite tonnes of em is driving… nth much to update abt skool… juz trying to cope w it bahz…
Just look at my eyelid… super low morale…
See.... It's big.... part of the reason.. i refuse to go anywhere except for skool and work....
which means... i am forced to postpone my shopping therapy... sob sob~
Anil mention it's due to the dirt that my tears cant get rid off..... omg...
i cant image wad's goin to happen tml when i visit the doc....
super duper scare... heart beating real fast....
already not pretty liaoz... eye still like tt.. how??
sob sob~
ur actions are forcing my brain cell to work... i dunno wad to do... spilt moment btw cold and hot... there is no clear direction... or rather... i am juz too afraid to make a decision... afraid of regret?? i am so not myself.... dunno wad i wan.... can some kind soul shed some light...
pple of my batch are either planning to get married, getting married or got married... wad abt me?? on the fence....
i look upon the moon and stars at 4:15:00 PM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
